I guess I finally figured out why I am not really happy. Indulging in meaningless chase for pleasure leads to nothing, but emptiness. -shouldn't i have realised that in God long time ago?- It's an irony that we don't seem to understand the fundementals which are placed so prominently before our eyes.

Yes, I should set things back... back to where there is meaningful purpose, one that is in loving obedience of Him.